Wow. Looking through my photos in Facebook, I just realized how much of a physical transformation I underwent in the past months. No wonder I keep on getting compliments and people telling me something like, "I did not recognize you." I don't know if this is because of the break up or it's because I decided to live in the moment and just love myself. It's a mixture of both, I guess. If not because of the break up, I'd still be so focused in the future (earning money, saving for my future family while also doing what I love, deciding on what I really want to do in life, thinking 'Am I good enough?', etc.) and forget about my current well-being, and if not because of my decision to live in the moment, I'd be so stuck in the past hurts caused by the break up and I'd also forget about my current well-being. I'd like to think that this physical transformation is because of the transformation inside of me...that decision to live in the now.
This is one of the lessons I learned which I am so grateful for because of the break up. To live in the moment, to be happy right here, right now. To take care of myself, to be happy about myself and in turn bringing happiness to others. To love myself and in turn loving others, loving any kind of situation, loving the world more. Indeed, how you see the world is a reflection of who you are.
For so long I have been trying to seek the kingdom of God and holding on to Matthew 6:33, But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. But I focused so much in seeking and looking into an unknown future that I failed to remember that there's a verse that comes after that, verse 34: Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. In fact, the verses that come before focuses on not worrying and just living in the moment: Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life[a]?
28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them.
WOW.
Keep in mind, Leng:
Stop worrying and looking for things that are not there because everything that you need is here already. Stop looking for the kingdom of God and let yourself be found by God, or better yet, see[k] God's kingdom in yourself. Nurture it. Grow it. Love it. And witness God transform you into your most beautiful version yet.
+ Leng
(P.S. I can confidently say now that I am really starting to move on. No more visitors from India too :) Thank you, Lord. Keep him safe and loved always.)
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