The Universe

"The universe is funny...we only see what we want to see, when we want to see it."
-HIMYM S05E24

I've always been an intuitive person.  I've always observed for signs, symbols, etc. to let myself know that the universe is talking to me.  Lately, I have been picking up numbers, songs, tv show episode titles, sitcom antics that are telling me not to lose hope despite my decision and other people's advice for me to move on.  And now I'm beginning to think that I'm picking up on these things because in my heart of hearts, that is what I really want.  No matter how perfect the timing of these things are...I'm starting to think that maybe they are just all in my head.  Funny thing too...just when I thought he was really cutting off communication with me, he still replied.  Now I don't know what to tell him.  But then again, there was never a mention that he would be changing his decision.  But there might be a chance that I can get him to if I reply with the right things.  But do I really want that?  The truth is...yes I want to persuade him to come back, but I want the decision to come from him and not because I carefully chose my words and made a good argument.

And so I'll just let it be...and let the universe do its thing?  I'm not entirely sure about this.  I have always been a type of person who works towards a great "destiny".  I don't like "destiny" coming to me.  But at the same time I'm also the type of person who believes that there is a great destiny for everyone and the universe helps everyone towards that...in a way, our destiny coming to us, we just have to make a decision to pursue that destiny.  Right now I am not making any decision that's why this is hard for me.  I might need time to think about this.