This song is part of the grieving playlist, but it is so beautiful that it deserves its own post. Plus there's smoke everywhere and watching HIMYM is not helping.
Showing posts with label grief. Show all posts
Showing posts with label grief. Show all posts
Thursday, October 3, 2013
Smoke gets in your eyes
This song is part of the grieving playlist, but it is so beautiful that it deserves its own post. Plus there's smoke everywhere and watching HIMYM is not helping.
Wednesday, October 2, 2013
Grieving playlist
In the first few days and weeks of the break up, I tried so hard to put on a strong and brave facade. But deep inside there was a little girl crying her heart out inside of me. Because I am forced to stay at home right now, I am also forced to look deep inside of me, I've realized not just how sad I am but how some friends have been saying the wrong things to me! Haha! Maybe that was why I never really acknowledged that crying little girl inside of me. But it's okay, at least they were still there for me.
And now that I've admitted that I am grieving, it wouldn't be complete without a playlist! So here are the songs I cry to:
1) Shake It Out - Florence + the Machine
You know that HIMYM Season 7 episode where after 5 years, Robin finally closed the door to Ted's hopes of someday being happy with her by a simple 'No'? I'm still waiting for that 'No'. Maybe someday that would come from him. Maybe in time I would be the one to close that door. But in the mean time, I can still shake off the devil on my back, bury the horse, cut out my graceless heart and restart, right? Right?
2) Lego House - Ed Sheeran
I would sing to him this song if we choose to still be together. I really do love him better now. But breaking up is the right thing to do, remember?
3) Another Heart Calls - The All-American Rejects
This song is a memorable one because this song was what I used to cry to during that time when he was still confused...before he took a chance on our relationship. Looking back, it would look as though it was not the best thing for us to be together then, but God let it happen. And we had a great run, but it really has to end now.
4) Who Am I? - Casting Crowns
You know who really makes me cry so hard? God. And how He makes His presence felt throughout this suffering of mine.
5) I Won't Give Up - Jason Mraz
And you know what else will make me (or anyone) cry hard? Hope...that small opening at the door.
6) Hackensack - Katy Perry (cover)
And if you ever get back to Hackensack, I'll be here for you.
7) The One That Got Away - Katy Perry
When I finally hear that he has moved on with another girl, this line would be playing over and over in my head: It's time to face the music, I'm no longer your muse.
8) The Way It Was - The Killers
If I go on with you by my side, can it be the way it was? Of course not. It shouldn't be, right?
9) Romeo and Juliet - The Killers (cover)
It was just that the time was wrong.
10) Bago Mahuli Ang Lahat - Never the Strangers
I just wish.
11) Heroes - David Bowie
We are heroes for doing the right thing.
12) For Good - Idina Menzel/Kristin Chenoweth
This song brings about one of the greatest memories I have with him. Four years ago, he sang this to me as a way to finally say that he was ready for a relationship with me. It was a great night. We walked out of the church of Gesu holding hands, looking out to the world and all the new possibilities because of that new future for us. It makes me feel so good remembering it...new love with all its mysteries, anticipation, and happiness. This song makes me cry, yes. But it is a hopeful song. I will learn to live again and breathe again in these abundant skies. This song had a deeper meaning since. I've now realized that it is really You and You alone can break anyone's fall. And because we let everything fall, I experienced the best memory I have with him. It was when I last saw him, September 8, 2013 (Sunday), Mama Mary's birthday, the day when we first kissed four years ago. It is now also the day that he was completely honest with me. He told me things he never told anyone before. I've never felt connected to him like that before. That was when I realized how much I love him and because of that love, I ought to let him go. This is just one of the great things that happened since the break up. And I can't thank You enough.
14) Always - Switchfoot
This song brings about great peace.
16) While I'm Waiting - John Waller
While I'm waiting for doors to be closed, or while I'm waiting for myself to become healed and ready again...
17) Everything's Not Lost - Coldplay
Another memorable song. He sent this to me that time he was confused about going into a relationship with me. I guess it will be easier to move on if I just forget everything that happened between us. But the great relationship we had deserves to be kept and treasured even if it means that I will sometimes hurt looking back at it. I am hoping that the day will come when I would fondly look back to the memories without feeling any kind of hurt, only gratitude that it happened. And it was a great blessing that it happened.
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And now that I've admitted that I am grieving, it wouldn't be complete without a playlist! So here are the songs I cry to:
1) Shake It Out - Florence + the Machine
You know that HIMYM Season 7 episode where after 5 years, Robin finally closed the door to Ted's hopes of someday being happy with her by a simple 'No'? I'm still waiting for that 'No'. Maybe someday that would come from him. Maybe in time I would be the one to close that door. But in the mean time, I can still shake off the devil on my back, bury the horse, cut out my graceless heart and restart, right? Right?
2) Lego House - Ed Sheeran
I would sing to him this song if we choose to still be together. I really do love him better now. But breaking up is the right thing to do, remember?
3) Another Heart Calls - The All-American Rejects
This song is a memorable one because this song was what I used to cry to during that time when he was still confused...before he took a chance on our relationship. Looking back, it would look as though it was not the best thing for us to be together then, but God let it happen. And we had a great run, but it really has to end now.
4) Who Am I? - Casting Crowns
You know who really makes me cry so hard? God. And how He makes His presence felt throughout this suffering of mine.
5) I Won't Give Up - Jason Mraz
And you know what else will make me (or anyone) cry hard? Hope...that small opening at the door.
6) Hackensack - Katy Perry (cover)
And if you ever get back to Hackensack, I'll be here for you.
7) The One That Got Away - Katy Perry
When I finally hear that he has moved on with another girl, this line would be playing over and over in my head: It's time to face the music, I'm no longer your muse.
8) The Way It Was - The Killers
If I go on with you by my side, can it be the way it was? Of course not. It shouldn't be, right?
9) Romeo and Juliet - The Killers (cover)
It was just that the time was wrong.
10) Bago Mahuli Ang Lahat - Never the Strangers
I just wish.
11) Heroes - David Bowie
We are heroes for doing the right thing.
12) For Good - Idina Menzel/Kristin Chenoweth
This song says it all, everything I feel about him and about the break up.
13) Learning to Breathe - Switchfoot
This song brings about one of the greatest memories I have with him. Four years ago, he sang this to me as a way to finally say that he was ready for a relationship with me. It was a great night. We walked out of the church of Gesu holding hands, looking out to the world and all the new possibilities because of that new future for us. It makes me feel so good remembering it...new love with all its mysteries, anticipation, and happiness. This song makes me cry, yes. But it is a hopeful song. I will learn to live again and breathe again in these abundant skies. This song had a deeper meaning since. I've now realized that it is really You and You alone can break anyone's fall. And because we let everything fall, I experienced the best memory I have with him. It was when I last saw him, September 8, 2013 (Sunday), Mama Mary's birthday, the day when we first kissed four years ago. It is now also the day that he was completely honest with me. He told me things he never told anyone before. I've never felt connected to him like that before. That was when I realized how much I love him and because of that love, I ought to let him go. This is just one of the great things that happened since the break up. And I can't thank You enough.
14) Always - Switchfoot
Every breath is a second chance. Thank You for always being there.
15) Steady My Heart - Kari Jobe
This song brings about great peace.
16) While I'm Waiting - John Waller
While I'm waiting for doors to be closed, or while I'm waiting for myself to become healed and ready again...
17) Everything's Not Lost - Coldplay
Another memorable song. He sent this to me that time he was confused about going into a relationship with me. I guess it will be easier to move on if I just forget everything that happened between us. But the great relationship we had deserves to be kept and treasured even if it means that I will sometimes hurt looking back at it. I am hoping that the day will come when I would fondly look back to the memories without feeling any kind of hurt, only gratitude that it happened. And it was a great blessing that it happened.
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Monday, September 30, 2013
3 Things that keep me sane at the moment
1. Music
Singing out loud with all my might and emotions with Taylor Swift and my very positive moving on playlist, releases all the tension!
2. How I Met Your Mother
Catching up, imagining myself and my new life with my new awesome job abroad, with my new awesome friends and my new awesome boyfriends.
3. Jesus
He's just awesome.
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While I count down to the days until I am free from this 10-day home confinement due to a contagious virus, I shall keep myself busy with these (plus some online work, social media, answering emails, practicing knitting, and preparing for my dream job application).
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Singing out loud with all my might and emotions with Taylor Swift and my very positive moving on playlist, releases all the tension!
2. How I Met Your Mother
Catching up, imagining myself and my new life with my new awesome job abroad, with my new awesome friends and my new awesome boyfriends.
3. Jesus
He's just awesome.
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While I count down to the days until I am free from this 10-day home confinement due to a contagious virus, I shall keep myself busy with these (plus some online work, social media, answering emails, practicing knitting, and preparing for my dream job application).
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